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Posted by: JennyG Original: 6/5/2009 12:21 PM Views: 156 Comments: 21 eProps: 38 Read Comments Post a Comment Back to Your Xanga Site

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Friday, June 05, 2009

Wait three months for an appointment.
Get excited and prepared, just knowing that this will finally be the place that helps you maneuver the system.
Conquer anxiety and drive to appointment in pouring rain.
Find parking.
Walk from parking garage, two blocks through pouring rain, to appointment location.
Sign in.
Get told that this place does not do psych evaluations nor autism evaluations. "We only do drug evaluations and monitoring."
Realize that you were misunderstood on the phone when you made the appointment (probably because you don't know what the hell you are doing).
Start to cry, out of frustration... That whole-body attack crying where you can't even try to speak or you know you become hysterical and not be able to pull yourself back together in time to turn around and face your child.
Wait 30 minutes to see psychologist anyway, hoping that there is some pearl of help you can grab onto.
Spend 90 seconds in dr's office.
Go back out into rain, through garage, in car, back on road.
Drop of your child at school.
Go home instead of work because you just can't take it anymore.
Go to bed because what the fuck difference does it make anyway.

I am bloody from beating my head against this wall. Depleted.
Just so over everything. So completely over life.

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I'm so sorry that you are having a rough time.

Posted 6/5/2009 12:26 PM by soul_survivor

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I should have some time this week to continue our talks about Asperger's and such.

Posted 6/5/2009 12:48 PM by soNOTcool

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I wish there were magic words to tell you to make you fell better. The best I can come up with is that I'm sorry things are so rough these days, and that the journey seems endless. I'm remembering you and your family in my prayers.

Posted 6/5/2009 1:06 PM by dylan197 - reply

Ugh.

Posted 6/5/2009 2:24 PM by X_naomi_X

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ugh thats insane.. i would be mad too

Posted 6/5/2009 2:57 PM by jackie004

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On the positive side... you do have Ed and family in your life to at least give moral support. Trying to do all of that alone is enough to give a person a complete breakdown. Ask me. You aren't alone even though it feels at times like the world is on your shoulders.

Posted 6/5/2009 3:02 PM by soul_survivor

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*hugs*

Posted 6/5/2009 3:23 PM by Coffeebee

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I am so sorry. How completely frustrating for you.{{{Major hugs}}}

Posted 6/5/2009 3:23 PM by Broom_Service - reply

YOu are over today. Hibernate today...even tonight. Everyone is entitled to say 'to hell with it all' every once in awhile. But tomorrow, get your ass out of that bed, and have a shower, and say that this dark cloud is not going to beat you!

Posted 6/5/2009 4:30 PM by islandmom - reply

How exhausting! Perhaps the answer is in a different direction?... When you regain your center, what intitively does your instincts say about the situation?

Posted 6/5/2009 5:14 PM by everyday_yogi - reply

Holy crapping shit! That does suck big tits!

~just holding you, for as long as you want me to~

Posted 6/5/2009 6:26 PM by ToReadYou - reply

@ToReadYou - Okay. Sucking big tits made me laugh hard. Thanks for that and the chronic hug.

Posted 6/5/2009 6:38 PM by JennyG

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im sorry, did the pdoc do or say anything? have you researched your local area? did you call behavorial health or mental health? let me know if i can help

Posted 6/5/2009 6:52 PM by misunderstood47 - reply

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Oh Jenny... that really, really sucks. I'm so sorry

Posted 6/5/2009 8:08 PM by une_Canadienne_errante

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you need to rest & do something very very nice for yourself we've got to satisfy our own soul every now & again or we get totally "depleted " sending for a comeback ))) beck

Posted 6/5/2009 8:44 PM by mag_1

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Posted 6/5/2009 11:35 PM by rosebudsinwyo

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Hello Ms. G,
You made your site so simple yet elegant. The pictures are a nice touch. I see that you have your ups and downs. We all do! That’s the kind of world that we live in now. Fortunately, it isn’t going to stay this way much longer!
I want to help people to really get to know Jehovah God: 2 And God spake unto Moses, and said unto him, I am the LORD: 3 And I appeared unto Abraham, unto Isaac, and unto Jacob, by the name of God Almighty, but by my name JEHOVAH was I not known to them. (Exodus 6:2-3) (KJV)

Posted 6/6/2009 2:52 AM by Theendofthisworld - reply

Sounds so completely awful, Jenny. I pray the help you need comes swiftly!

Posted 6/6/2009 10:51 AM by Child_of_Tree

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I had a very similar day a year ago, albeit for something else. I know that feeling of being punched in the stomach and thinking you're just going to collapse right then and there.

I so hope you are able to find the right place for the right help soon.
*hugs*

Posted 6/6/2009 1:58 PM by CanadianE

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I'm sorry.............

Posted 6/6/2009 6:02 PM by spinksy

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I'm sorry you had a miscommunication. Please make an appointment with a pediatric neurologist or pediatric neurodevelopmental specialist...they're the ones that do the type of evaluation you're looking for as well as proper diagnosis. A psychologisis not qualified to give that kind of medical diagnosis (no disrespect intended to psychs..). Check with your insurance as well as the child study team - as they should be paying for independent testing as they probably do not have a neurologist on staff.

love you,

mare

Posted 6/9/2009 5:22 PM by kuanshih_yin - reply

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